two cents of gold
There are only a handful of key advices that are ever going to impact you enough to alter your life path. For me they are usually very simple advices or nice words but so extremely rare. Last one came from the nice soprano section leader about a month ago who told me, in the chillest manner, “don’t be afraid to come back”. She might have just said it out of being nice, but for me, that was it. I felt entirely transformed after that; A whole new me who wasn’t afraid of ever ‘going back’ again. I’ve been thanking her in my head ever since. Last time before that though dates back to almost two years ago, when the ever so great D. gave me that simplest of all advices to ‘just do it’. Amazing what a plain old saying can do when it hits you on the exact right time, when you start to take it to the heart.
Then it brings us to tonight; One precious honest friend finally gave me two advices that I needed to hear in such a long time. Two of those high impact sentences in one night. I feel elevated and transformed on two levels: One is that I know now that my gpa matters very little. What have I been really worrying myself about? Just finish up that degree that nobody cares about, including you! And on a different level, I know that best things come through pushing harder on the average, the shallow connections, the mediocre presences, on small talk, really, rather than waiting for the perfect, the right moment, the right hook, the right person to show up. I know now that sometimes people are hard to get a hold of. They would just be asleep, or busy, or not in a good mood for any reason. It’s always better to assume the best in people than the worst. Cause Yes, the worst is just in your head. Even when it isn’t.
Dear Seb., I’ll be thanking you in my head for a long time to come.
